- KIM: I just couldn't answer the phone. It was too deep.
- ME: Was it deep.com?
- KIM: It was like passed that. It was like deep.edu.
So, a lot has been going on. This weekend was long. Aside from it being Labor Day weekend, we also found out that Hubs’ grandmother passed away. We had his sister this weekend (she’s 15) while his parents were in New Orleans taking care of arrangements. I was rather snappy and ridiculously moody - more than usual for the Gemini I am. I didn’t get it. I wasn’t PMSing and no one had done anything to me. I was just at a point of emotional despair. I was doing my best to be there for Hubs and my family but I really felt…scattered.
After Midday Mattieologie today, I spoke to his aunts about the song I’ll be singing at the funeral. While rehearsing, I sort of just broke down. It honestly felt like more of a break through. The truth was I had been telling everyone I was alright and the reality of it was I hadn’t even taken a moment to myself to grieve, rightfully so.
MORAL OF THE STORY: Grieve after tragedy. It’s for your own good.